At this point in time, I can't say I'm any fonder of irony than before.
So, Day after I realise I love that asshole, he says this to Courtney:
Memento mori http://www.pixelpages.net/error_404.htm says:
its not that i dont like her, i dont know, i just like to play, and shes a lil too crazy anyways (not insane crazy, like, off the wall crazy)
Initial reaction: I am not your FUCKING PLAYTHING, FUCKING ASSHOLE.
Secondary reaction: I want to die!
Tertiary reaction: I still, really want to die!
So I wrote him this letter, er, email after I spoke to him about it and he replied, then went offline quickly.
Letter:
You are a fucking vile boy. You knew I was infatuated with you, and you lead me on anyways. You know how low my self-esteem is, and you did it anyways. I have no faith in the human race now, or rather, once again, because I put all my trust in the wry, charming boy that is you, and you toyed with it for your own amusement. You leave this dull ache in my chest. Have you no heart? You fucking knew I adored you. You always knew it. I hope that within yourself, you have some sort of decency, conscience, or guilt, for what you have done is one of the lowest actions someone of the human race can do.
Congratulations David, now I have no faith in the human race, or myself either.
Oh, and I'm off the wall?
This from the boy who wanted pictures of horse blowjobs.
I prefer "eccentric" for myself, you, on the otherhand, I would label a sexual deviant. Not the best of titles, I assure you.
Keep talking David, honestly, I need more reasons to stop loving you, and you are slowly but surely providing them. Not to sound melodramatic, but you broke my heart. And its not as though you told me you had a girlfriend, I had to hear from someone else. You may be entirely comfortable in your skin, David, but I am without a doubt sure you shouldn't be. Such disregard for human emotions and love shows you to be as disgusting a person as those I have such anxiety over. And you and your facade, I fell for you anyways, knowing of your transgressions and all. I gave you my trust, and you did not take care of it accordingly.
You deserve whatever reputation you get; a wretched boy who should not even be granted human contact.
-Robin.
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Why can I never learn? Why do I always have to give people a chance?
Why must I always find these things out for myself?