I'm not at school.
I feel like shit and I look like shit.
I want to die.
Its because, everytime I want to accomplish anything, I can't, even if I try. I become afraid of failure, and then afraid of succeeding, and then afraid of the anxiety that comes with the situation.
Then I avoid it.
And I fail.
And it hurts.
All the time.
I want to give up now. I want to go to sleep and never wake up. I want to be able to dream of everything I'd ever wanted for myself, for others, and think its true.
I want to be deceived.
Call me if its important, or if its not. 279-4369.